Well... [ He rubbed the back of his neck with a flustered look on his face. He cleared his throat a little and became a little more stiff. ]
That kiss of Takuto.... back a couple months ago had me thinking... or rather... it made me realize... that I don't think I would have minded all that much if it were two different people... one of them
[ He can't even bring himself to finish that sentence. It's not that what Atsushi's saying bothers him, but rather Atsushi has just presented him with a scenario that could change their easy friendship. En hasn't really considered that kind of thing. Not seriously, anyway, because friends who become romantically involved are taking a huge risk that could end the friendship if things don't work out romantically.
Although he doesn't mean to, a nervous laugh escapes him, and he says the only thing he can think of to get the attention off himself. ]
A-ah?... well... I suppose it would be... Weiss-san.
[ he swallows hard and sort of fidgets with the hem of his shirt. ]
I know that... telling you this... might be awkward.... and it might bother you, and I'm sorry about that... I-I don't want anything bad to happen to us. We're best friends after all... b-but... I felt you had the right to know that I am harboring feelings for you in a more ah.... I suppose romantic sense...?
[ En can't say he's surprised, and he already sort of suspected it. But then Atsushi brings the subject back to him, and while sometimes he's more than happy to bask in the attention, this isn't one of those times. ]
No. No, you--
[ En takes a breath, as if to say something, but suddenly exhales instead. ]
Even if it's... awkward... I don't want you to apologize to me. Apologizing for your feelings isn't something anyone should have to do.
[ He laughs again, quietly, unsure of what to say. Or do. ]
But when you put it that way--harboring feelings--that makes it sound like you've been reading too much. Isn't that kind of phrase used with negative words, like harboring grudges? Or harboring a fugitive? Ah--
[ He got off topic. Probably because he'd rather do that than be the topic. ]
...Thank you, Atsushi. For telling me, and... being honest... and direct. Ah, well maybe not too direct, since the heart on the sweater was too subtle, even for me. But... you know what I mean.
[ Aaaah it really did just happen without him realizing it, so his face looks even more flustered. ]
Ah... I-I don't know what I'm supposed to say from here...? I-I know that you aren't... well you don't like relationships of that kind because they get messy and complicated... s-so it's not like I'm saying anything has to happen or you have to feel the same... I um... don't know I'm kind of rambling at this point.
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That kiss of Takuto.... back a couple months ago had me thinking... or rather... it made me realize... that I don't think I would have minded all that much if it were two different people... one of them
[ He turned his head to look at En. ]
One of them being you.
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[ He can't even bring himself to finish that sentence. It's not that what Atsushi's saying bothers him, but rather Atsushi has just presented him with a scenario that could change their easy friendship. En hasn't really considered that kind of thing. Not seriously, anyway, because friends who become romantically involved are taking a huge risk that could end the friendship if things don't work out romantically.
Although he doesn't mean to, a nervous laugh escapes him, and he says the only thing he can think of to get the attention off himself. ]
Who's the other?
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[ he swallows hard and sort of fidgets with the hem of his shirt. ]
I know that... telling you this... might be awkward.... and it might bother you, and I'm sorry about that... I-I don't want anything bad to happen to us. We're best friends after all... b-but... I felt you had the right to know that I am harboring feelings for you in a more ah.... I suppose romantic sense...?
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[ En can't say he's surprised, and he already sort of suspected it. But then Atsushi brings the subject back to him, and while sometimes he's more than happy to bask in the attention, this isn't one of those times. ]
No. No, you--
[ En takes a breath, as if to say something, but suddenly exhales instead. ]
Even if it's... awkward... I don't want you to apologize to me. Apologizing for your feelings isn't something anyone should have to do.
[ He laughs again, quietly, unsure of what to say. Or do. ]
But when you put it that way--harboring feelings--that makes it sound like you've been reading too much. Isn't that kind of phrase used with negative words, like harboring grudges? Or harboring a fugitive? Ah--
[ He got off topic. Probably because he'd rather do that than be the topic. ]
...Thank you, Atsushi. For telling me, and... being honest... and direct. Ah, well maybe not too direct, since the heart on the sweater was too subtle, even for me. But... you know what I mean.
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[ Aaaah it really did just happen without him realizing it, so his face looks even more flustered. ]
Ah... I-I don't know what I'm supposed to say from here...? I-I know that you aren't... well you don't like relationships of that kind because they get messy and complicated... s-so it's not like I'm saying anything has to happen or you have to feel the same... I um... don't know I'm kind of rambling at this point.